Losing the Love

Both of our hearts are aching,
because the pain we share is real.
Though we smile all the time,
to hide exactly how we feel.

My parents hate your guts,
Though you've done nothing wrong.
We want to fall down, but
we need to grow to be strong.

The first time that we split,
that's what my heart did too.
It split right down the middle,
because I missed you.

You had found a new love,
and I was still on my own.
When you were with her,
I felt completely alone.

I cried every single night,
remembering our memories.
Aching to run over to you,
and beg you "Please, please, please!"

"Please take me back, Penguin!
Because I really love you so!
I'm sorry for giving up on us,
but please don't let me go!"

Though I was much too weak,
I stayed silent all along.
I realized letting my parents win,
was very, VERY wrong.

Eventually when you were free,
and able to date again.
I took you back without a second's thought,
I had just re-gained my friend.

Our relationship grew and grew,
and it has grown so strong.
I knew you were the love of my life,
I knew it all along.

But here we are again,
the same place as before.
Mom and dad yelling at me,
to kick you out the door.

I dont' know what to do,
and you suggested this.
That if they still hate you later,
...then maybe we should split.

I can't believe those words,
that thing you just said.
I can't comprehend that idea,
can't get it in my head.

I can never let you go!
I won't repeat the past!
I know that we can make it!
I know that we can last!

You loved me so much,
that you proposed to me.
You want to be in my life,
and live there for eternity.

But when you said we should split,
it broke my heart again.
Is it that you don't love me,
and you only want to be friends?

I can't believe this situation,
could ever rise at all.
But i've resided to keeping silent,
and only at night do I bawl.

You're my Penguin, my penguin for life,
and that i've promised you.
You know I mean "I love you",
and I know you do too.

But if mom and dad hate you,
and never want to change.
Then they are completely messed up,
even a bit deranged.

You are a very smart person,
With nearly perfect grades.
You are very good at instruments,
and can shoot airsoft at long range.

You pick me up like I was 3,
and twirl me round and round.
Then eventually we watch the stars,
as we lay on top of the ground.

You can do anything you want,
and you can and will.
As far as my standards are,
you definitely fit the bill.

You are an amazing person,
a person nobody could hate!
Our relationship is amazing,
your love for me is great!

I dont' see my parent's point,
when they say I have to leave you.
I can never leave your side,
i can't throw you out in the blue.

We can make it through this,
and I know you know that's right.
Our love is golden and it is pure,
and it's definitely in it's flight.

Is it that you don't want me anymore,
and that you love another?
I just thought we were perfect,
and were meant for each other...

But if what makes you happy isn't me,
then I guess i can understand.
But if i were to find someone else,
I couldn't stand to hold their hand.

All of these memories,
have been shared together.
I thought our love was true,
and that i'd last forever.

What am I to do?
To change my parent's minds?
How much time do we have left?
Or are we already out of time?

What are you thinking right now?
Can I read your thoughts?
You know i can't forget you,
and that I can't be forgot.

We both promised each other,
not to float away.
But that's kinda really hard,
seeing you with someone else every day.

I hope that we can make it through,
these hard times soon.
Otherwise i'll continue to cry,
every night under the moon.

If we make it out alive,
then it would make us stronger.
Our relationship would last!
It would last much longer!

Just remember, Penguin,
that there's only 3 more years.
Then we can start our lives together,
and get rid of our fears.

We can graduate college together,
and then move to our home.
Get our jobs and have a great time,
then we'd never be alone!

Our kids would look up to us,
And they'd be loved every day.
I'd never treat them like my parents treat us,
i'd rather die, okay?

We have our lives in front of us,
and I cant' wait to start.
Just as long as our love,
will come straight from our hearts.

Just hold my hand, my Penguin,
and let me lead the way.
If we end up surviving this mess,
we can live together every day.

Just don't let me go, okay?
Promise that you won't leave.
Cause if you do, i'll want to die,
and forever I would grieve.

Sorry for this little rant,
I needed to let it out.
This is how I vent out things,
So that I don't accidentally shout.

Please try to understand,
this pain i'm going through.
What if the love of your life,
were to give up and leave you?

Yeah, that's what i'm afraid of.
Being alone.
Call me weak, go ahead.
But i'd be on my own.

This is to my Penguin,
so that he knows my story.
Sorry, Penguin, that's it's super sad.
Hey, at least it's not gory.

I want to share one more thing,
before I give this up.
This is my one last chance,
My one last chance for luck.

Ready?

I loved you once,
and I loved you still.
Always have,
and I always will.

<3