Don't Look Away

Let it sink in.
Feel the pain cut deep.
Know what it does,
to you,
to me.
Know That You Can't Stop It.
Can't help it.
Know I wont make myself
Stop it.
I love the rush,
Relish the pain.
You Know What I Do To Myself
And yet you let me do it again.
I diserve the peircing feel,
the sinking thing in my gut.
The Smiles I Have Lost Are Gone,
You can try and claim them for me
The laughs I give now are hallow.
No joy can any longer fill me.
You Know What I'm Capable Of
and yet you turn away,
You believe a blind eye,
Will make me want to stay.
Ignorance may be bliss,
But for me it can kill.
Because
Every Time You Look Away,
Sucicide becomes more real,
Makes me think it isn't a big deal,
Hope that it will make me feel.