When I'm hurting

It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to
reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to
see the depths of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to
see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to
really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to
listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to
understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get
acquainted.
It's for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to
feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries,
than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths
of my soul.

It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let
you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes.
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to
risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for
me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to
trust that you won't hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face
Lifes challenges.

It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need
help the most.

If only you'd really look at me and see who I
am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I
push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of
my feelings.

But it's easy roads that are most often taken.
And so I hurt alone....