undecided
also here's a poem i wrote, its very weird and makes absolutely no sense but im sending it anyway, no idea what made me write it i just did, dont ask what its about cuz i dont know:
part of you has died within me, i miss you on the outside but hold you tightly to my veins within, i fade darkly into the light, the light that blinds me and leaves me left alone in the dark, its there, its everywhere, like a candle but without flame its memory of the blaze is left behind, open arms are chopped into bloody pieces that fall to broken glass, broken love, broken life, i miss the outside, the light thats pushing me from the dark, i cant find the way around, cant put the knife to torch me, cant escape the wrenching light, no matter if i let go, or if i hold on tight
don't leave me but hush baby you cant stay, am i am i am i away? im fading, into the light, yet i am pushed away, sweetie dont apply the brakes you'll only crash harder at the end of the road, its the time to wreck day in and day out, to merely see not to look ahead of ye, don't seek me after the final fate, the written words in blood love won't celebrate me but will forgive thy mortal cries, dust at dusk shall collapse, the delusions now don't scream, i almost miss them it seems but im withdrawing, having shaking awful withdrawels from a substance i never obtained; one that cannot be explained, the awful deadly dreams sink into me and my forever tragedy, dancing above my heightened perceptions yet blurred sense of life and death because im stuck in between, honey on my bloody fingerprints that shall once write your name, but have not yet existed, don't leave its way too late but you're way too early to exit with me, every bone breaking within your spine and growing once again, gunsmoke that doesnt exist turning blue and drawing a pool of darkness shut in my face, i cant remember the clock speaking i was ever good at something, myself spilled on the floor but im standing right here, smiling and shining and humming a deadly tune then crying for you
part of you has died within me, i miss you on the outside but hold you tightly to my veins within, i fade darkly into the light, the light that blinds me and leaves me left alone in the dark, its there, its everywhere, like a candle but without flame its memory of the blaze is left behind, open arms are chopped into bloody pieces that fall to broken glass, broken love, broken life, i miss the outside, the light thats pushing me from the dark, i cant find the way around, cant put the knife to torch me, cant escape the wrenching light, no matter if i let go, or if i hold on tight
don't leave me but hush baby you cant stay, am i am i am i away? im fading, into the light, yet i am pushed away, sweetie dont apply the brakes you'll only crash harder at the end of the road, its the time to wreck day in and day out, to merely see not to look ahead of ye, don't seek me after the final fate, the written words in blood love won't celebrate me but will forgive thy mortal cries, dust at dusk shall collapse, the delusions now don't scream, i almost miss them it seems but im withdrawing, having shaking awful withdrawels from a substance i never obtained; one that cannot be explained, the awful deadly dreams sink into me and my forever tragedy, dancing above my heightened perceptions yet blurred sense of life and death because im stuck in between, honey on my bloody fingerprints that shall once write your name, but have not yet existed, don't leave its way too late but you're way too early to exit with me, every bone breaking within your spine and growing once again, gunsmoke that doesnt exist turning blue and drawing a pool of darkness shut in my face, i cant remember the clock speaking i was ever good at something, myself spilled on the floor but im standing right here, smiling and shining and humming a deadly tune then crying for you