Ever Be Okay

Two a.m. and it’s one more bad night
Not the first time she couldn’t sleep right
Not a single minute to calm herself down
Even her music’s not helping her now
Got the razorblade in one hand
The other on what will make her meet her end
Tonight was just another reason why
She shoulda pulled it long ago and ended her life
Well she looks in the mirror at a face she hates
She knows she shouldn’t say goodbye this way
Sends one I love you to the boy she lost
Right now she’s gotta get so far gone

Nothing will ever be okay
No one hears the screams she makes
This one last time should’ve been the last to hurt
She’s going to do this, going to make it work
Breathing is tight and she screams out
No matter how much no matter how loud
They never hear her calling for help
How would they feel if she was so gone now

Across town there’s a boy and he’s just sixteen
Two a.m. and he’s fast asleep
Hears a noise from his phone and feels around
Wondering what could be going on right now
His eyes open wide and the I love you is read
Wonders why she isn’t asleep in bed
The panic sets in and he grabs his keys
He let her go once thought that he’d be happy free
Driving and he’s worried and the red light flashes
Doesn’t ever hit the brakes he’s just going faster
Walks in to her house and sees what’s wrong
Falls to his knees and begs that it wasn’t long

Nothing will ever be okay
No one hears the scream he makes
This one last time shoulda been the last to hurt
Why’d she do this, he hopes it didn’t work
Breathing is tight and he screams out
But no matter how much no matter how loud
They never hear him calling for help
How’s he going to feel if he lost her forever now

She’s on the floor and he screams her name
Knowing after this they will never be the same
Her pulse is slow and her eyes are gone
Nothing has ever looked so damn wrong
Begs her to come back but his cries are no good
She’s already left to where there is no one
Her last dying wish on the floor beside her
Has his name he picks it up and reads the letter
She says

Nothing will ever be okay
No one ever hears the screams I make
This last time is my last to hurt
After all this time it will finally work
My breathings always tight from screaming out
But no matter how much no matter how loud
No one ever heard me calling for help
Too late I’m gone forever now

Then there’s you and you’re so perfect
Stuck on you from the first moment
Lost you in the middle of a confusing fight
But I always thought about you to stay alive
Baby don’t ever give up on anything
Do it for me since I couldn’t stand to breathe
Live your life crazy loud and party a lot
Remember me whenever you feel so gone
Take a shot tonight and raise your glasses
Drink to the ones who weren’t everlasting
Smile because you deserve to all the time
Forget everything that you saw here tonight
And baby don’t forget that I love you
After all this time and you never knew
Just remember you’re not invincible
The world is yours and you’re not replaceable
But if the trigger is pulled and you’re in the way
Everything’s different it will all change
Were young and were reckless don’t know life
You can live in the morning and die that night