Scary thoughts

 These are my thoughts that I share with this paper these are my thoughts that I write with this pen all of my thoughts are made up of sins so I can't be forgiven if they are done sometimes I just want to take this gun and be gone or be hung and be forever young these are my thoughts you will not take away I don't want to breath another day. Don't tell me I shouldn't be thinking these things because you don't know me you don't know what I go through.. To you , these are scary thoughts. To me, these are heavenly thoughts. I want to cut my self until my problems are away or drown myself in the tub until my soul goes down the drain with all my dreams. I am like a bully to myself with all these scary thoughts, but I don't care. Seems like I was born with a death wish to always get hurt so I choose not to love and get burnt. These are my thoughts fuck what you think. These scary thoughts keep me warm an keep me together they are what make me. These scary thoughts came from all the abuse you all did to my heart and all the people I lost while living from the start . The devil calls my name but I refuse to be with him but these scary thoughts are what pull me towards him. He breaths on my neck and touches my back until his fiery words make my skin burn and crack with pain and pleasure these scary thoughts are what I think these thoughts are better than having a drink... These are my thoughts the scary ones...