Ruby Beads

I love when it bleeds
The beautiful ruby beads
When it drips down my sides
Past my hipbones
Beyond my thighs
And crawls across my veins
And runs along my knees
I just cannot help it
I love when it bleeds.

I am not sad
Depressed, lonely, or mad
But I have no reason
Why I do what I do
When I tickle my skin
And slice it open too
I promise I'm not crazy
Just please don't be mad
I am not sad. I am not sad.

But I'm done for the day
Time to put the blades away
Watch something else
Clean the blood
From myself
Keep calm and keep breathing
Keep calm and just lay
Alone with my scars
I'm done for the day.