Help Me Out?

why do i do this?
its not right!
i hide it from everyone
and want it out
but whenever someone
asks
i just push it away
they try and help
i try to censor myself
just get me out of this
hellhole!
its all i want
i dont need help
well, atleast not from
you
i can help myself
oh, what about the
others?
they dont just help
they care.
But i dont care weather
they care or not
I just want to be alone
without people
bothering
me.