I Am, Who Am I?

I am bipolar.

I wonder about me.

I hear the others and there critisim.
I see the future and the chanellages ahead.

I want a chance.

I am a ODD.

I pretend i dont care.
I feel the needles in my heart.

I touch reality but tremble back into my own world.

I worry I will never see the world as i wish too.

I cry to myself hope for my dreams to become true.

I am a dreamer.

I understand I have little chance to achieve my dreams.

I say I am trying.

I dream i was never here.

I try to get my family to understand.

I hope i will never be in this life again.

I am, who am i?