Content With Each Breath

Living in this everyday rut
No sense of direction
And nobody to trust
Falling with no floor beneath
Dropping like a stone
To the ever-cold earth

Repetitive motion, my lack of emotion
Soul so shallow nothing can hold.
Drowning in misery
Escape my reality
Running in circles
No stop and all go.

A sunrise or sunset
Orbit the earth
Mind floating in celestial space
Nonsense and knowledge all thrown into one
A mixture of everything
Sculpting the woman I've become.

Life and death
And those who never really live
My place in none of these.
I'm alive and I'm breathing
Polluted air acid rain
A savage war
Mankind slowly fading.

Rain, please fall and wash away
Impurities and rot
Don't let my mind decay.
Break the dams and overflow
Rust the old clean the new.

Don't run away
My quick escape
From the monster I'm afraid to become.

Eloquent words
Don't fail me now
Make me a memory,
Paint me my life.
Nervous ramblings escape my mouth
And as I breathe in
My confidence rushes Out of breath, out of time.

Wait.
Don't let me go.
Bring me back to a life so sweet.
Saccharine scent
Sweetly posion
Artificallity seeping from beneath.
Insubstantial matter all around
Give me some substance.

To hell with normality
Fitting in
Being cool
FAKE.

I want the real thing
Take my breath away, blue skies
Show me something real.

My words are timed
My breaths are numbered
The beating in my chest grows frantic

Because I know one day my light will fade
And I will be nothing more than a silhouette
Footprints that once walked on this shore.

But for now I'm sitting on the dock.
Thinking about life
Content with each breath
Living in the moment
Because I'm alive.