Living Without Breathing

Changing, I'm turning around
Trying not to get caught up in it
I’ll hold on to my sorrow
Stuck on one track
Though it's slowly parting
A choice to be made
Depending on every lovely word
An inner voice tearing me apart
Shining through, no it won't happen
My walls wont crumple
I'm weak, but still stronger than your wasted love
I’ll never be worth it
Get out of this before we're glued together
Moving on I'm already gone
No you don’t wanna know me
Without a hint of a heartbeat
I’ll seek out pain as always
Lying to you and myself
My fire is still burning
Feeding from my hate
I don’t know where my feelings are hiding
But they're not in me anymore
I cant get in contact with myself
So what makes you think i can love this?
You cant save me, when i don’t want your hugs
Crush me with reality
I'm to scared to breathe
It'll only make it harder
I'm living my life on one breath
Nowhere near ready to care
Loving that i smile without emotion
Laughing an empty shell away
Incredibly happy with living a lie
Choking on my confusion
We're not used to this
Will we ever be?
Staying in this body, this life
Proves to be too much pressure
Always weighing me down
But my addiction to feel like shit
Let's me know, that I’ll never let this go.