If Only It Wasn't True

I look upon it all with love
it's the only thing I have left
such a strange thing to wager
that keeps my heart beating.

I wish only the best for them all,
they all mean more than the world to me
I couldn't live without them
for they keep my world spinning.

I just wish I meant something to them
perhaps if I was a person
someone who wasn't bound on destruction
I could be there friend.

If there was a place in this world for someone like me
I would have found it by now
but perhaps this isn't the place for me
and I should end it all now.

If only I could find the answers
If only the road wasn't confusing
perhaps I could get somewhere down this path
instead of destroying others who's right it is to pass.