To know Love

To know love is to know pain
Darling you have shown me
Your smile has taught me how to feel
But this hate inside is growing

A meeting of our eyes can spark
Such a sweet and lovely symphony
I can feel the birth of every fear
Coming to life inside of me

It's funny how the darkness grows
In a soul that's emotion is shallow
Drowning a love that could've been
A metamorphosis of the shadow

I am becoming all that I have feared
But I am fearing it less and less
The demon inside rapes my soul
But I hate it, I love it, don't stop. Yes

Yes, again. A thousand times yes
Free me from the freedom I fear
Bind me with your slithering darkness
With a true love more infinitely clear

You see my vision as sickened
Judgment clouded by trepidation
Poisoned by a sweet paranoia
A victim of demonic imagination

I hate you I love you I need you now
I'm scared baby and I can't get out
Fear is a prison of organic steel
Trapped by such merciless doubt

Oh how I endure on this lonely path
Walking along as my strength abates
I am the creator of my own demise
I've trespassed unto demonic gates

Oh God please save me from this hell
This monster I know I've become
Her smile is gone oh God it's gone
A kingdom built upon a love undone

To know fear is to know pain
And I see all I have loved is gone
Laughing because I am insane
Crying for all that I have lost

To know love is to know pain
Darling you have shown me
Your tears have taught me all I've killed
And a love that never could be