I'm back. :3

I haven't written a poem in a long long time,
In fact, most of you on here probably haven't read mine,
But it doesn't matter to me if you read what I wrote,
There's nothing about me that I'm trying to promote,
I just want to write about how I feel without a judge,
And sometimes writing like this gives me a small nudge,
In the direction I need to go from where I am,
And sometimes it get's real bad, like "damn,"
But I don't care now, old problems are history,
Now let me tell you a recent story,
The problems I used to face are gone,
I used to feel like a pawn,
In someone else's game but no longer,
If you think I'm spent, you couldn't be wronger!
As a matter of fact I'm just starting life,
And of course, there's going to be strife,
But now all I need to do,
Is ask out the girl I like, Who?
That's what you're asking if you know me,
And the answer is Shahnaz, don't you see?
I've liked her a while, a good long while,
But sometimes I feel like I'm a mile,
From getting her to like me like that,
I'm afraid of losing her to a stupid twat,
But I don't think she'll ever like me,
But I don't care, she has the key,
To my heart right now, but that doesn't mean,
That she has to love me, that has yet to be seen,
All I need is for her to be happy,
I'll do anything to help her, and make it snappy,
If we DO go out, Shahnaz and I,
I'll treat her like a queen, and that ain't a lie,
But enough about my wishes and dreams,
I'll bet you're wondering "who is this guy, it seems,
that he's a bit weird, but devoted to that girl."
You'd be right, my weirdness has yet to unfurl,
Though, because there's more to me than you'll ever know,
And by the way, I'm not a bad kid anymore, so,
I'll leave with this remark, love I do not lack,
And just so all of you know this, I'm back. :3