Why?

Why
I always wondered
What I did to you
To hate me like you do

It's kind of sad, really
My desperation to fit in
To be loved
To be needed

Depression
Anxiety
Unhappiness

Emotions that I never feel
For I am the heartless one
The soulless one
The dead one

Don't stop
I love the pain
The pain of hurt and brokenness
The pain of death

I feel it coming nearer
A looming shadow of destruction
I shall never again get in its path
Or I'll end up broken once more.