This Bleeding Heart is All in My Head

Tell my brother I love him, it'll be alright.
Tell my mother it wasn't because of our fight,
Tell the neighbors I'm gone from some rare disease,
Just don't tell them my sickness was me.

I wish I could take back all that has been said.
If only life was as simple as that.
If only the struggle was easier than death,
Perhaps I'd still be here.

I'm sorry, for all of this.
I'm sorry, if I am missed.
I'm sorry that I couldn't change.
And I'm sorry, but I couldn't take the pain...

But I just can deal, with all of this stress
But that razor has only been practice for this.
I'm ashamed of all that I've done,
and I just can't bring myself to run...

Tell my friends I love them, they've kept me here for so long.
Much longer than anyone else could have done,
But I'm just a lost cause, with no God,
And I know that all I've done is wrong...

I'm sorry, for all of this.
I'm sorry, if I am missed.
I'm sorry that I couldn't change.
And I'm sorry, but I couldn't take the pain...

It ends tonight, before it begins,
I'm just a "bleeding heart", isn't that what you said?
It ends tonight, I'm sorry my friends.
But when it ends tonight, know I'm sorry, and someday it'll be alright.