Im Scaring Myself

This place is scary
I dont know where i am.
I forgot

The future looks dim
Blank and alone.
At least from where
Im at.

And where i am..
Isnt happy
Its not joyful
Its pain..

Im lost
And my mind, body, and soul
was the cost.

I wish i could say
That im okay
But obviously, i'd be lying

Im seeing my past
Images of blood and emptiness
Theres no way i'll last
For my body is vacant

This scares me..
Echoing into the depths
Of whatever shard of
Soul i have left
I wish i was free.

But im stuck here
I cant see him
I cant hear him
And i shed a tear

Where did he go?
Or where.....did i go?