Afraid

Anything but numb. Something to make me feel like
nothing.
A failure, as my soul. Fear making me selfish.
I will drag the blade across my wrist. I'll decide
what is right.
A life taken a life given. A life saved. A happier life.
A life without me. Not killing anybody.

Told to my eyes, what I am.
Told to my heart, what I should be.
Telling me you would do this for me.

To much to take.
Pain.
Tears.
Misery.
Worthlessness

I'll be the death of me.
A life given a life complete.
Nothing is complete unless it is dead.

Something dead is me. A given for your eternity.