At peace

I hear the laughter
It cuts into me
The jokes
Their voices
I wish they would all go away

Alone
I am at peace
No one laughs
Jokes
Makes me cry

But
It will happen
Again
And again
My voice freezes
I cannot speak

Scared
I don't know what to do
I want to be at peace
Away from them
Is this the only way

Knives
Pills
Ropes
A car
Will I finally find peace
Can no one save me?