Stay Strong

I wasn't winning
Myself- My body disgusted me.
Wider than a whale
I felt-
Maybe larger.
Christmas and Thanksgiving
Were the most difficult.
Turkey, ham, dressing smelled amazing.
But I wouldn't
Couldn't
Eat any of it.
Maybe a bite or two
To satisfy my family.
Those two bites made me sick.
Like I had gained ten pounds.

I learned that I am beautiful.
No matter everyone else's thoughts.
This is a disease like a drug addiction.
Like a mind disease.
It isn't like a car
Just can't be fixed in one single day.
It's a never ending battle.
"Stay strong"
Those words helped me
Through this year and half ordeal.
"Stay Strong"
Those words help me
Through my never ending battle.