Vanishing
They whisper
But they may as well be screaming
About how useless I am
About how much they hate me
I want somewhere I belong
But I fear I won't find that in this life
People think it's for attention
But it's not
Whatever I do I can't stop thinking
Of suicide
Glittering blood on the floor
A crimson waterfall flowing from my wrist
Or the gun in my hand
Urging it to shoot and end this
The pills sitting in the cupboard
Pleading with me to take them all
The drugs and alcohol
So that I can float above it all
No one would notice
For at least a day
By then I would be long gone
Hopefully to a place beyond here
But the thing that prevents me from
Reaching for the gun, the pills, the knife
Is the hope that someone might step up
Step up and care, help me over come this
Tell me they would miss me
And couldn't bare it if I left
That's the only thing that keeps me alive
Breathing for one more day
But with every passing day
I fear that, that won't be enough anymore and that I might just vanish
But they may as well be screaming
About how useless I am
About how much they hate me
I want somewhere I belong
But I fear I won't find that in this life
People think it's for attention
But it's not
Whatever I do I can't stop thinking
Of suicide
Glittering blood on the floor
A crimson waterfall flowing from my wrist
Or the gun in my hand
Urging it to shoot and end this
The pills sitting in the cupboard
Pleading with me to take them all
The drugs and alcohol
So that I can float above it all
No one would notice
For at least a day
By then I would be long gone
Hopefully to a place beyond here
But the thing that prevents me from
Reaching for the gun, the pills, the knife
Is the hope that someone might step up
Step up and care, help me over come this
Tell me they would miss me
And couldn't bare it if I left
That's the only thing that keeps me alive
Breathing for one more day
But with every passing day
I fear that, that won't be enough anymore and that I might just vanish