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I’d rather watch them darken then lighten
My dark days, I mean
I admit that I’m in a hole
And that I’m hopeless misery

I am malnourished and discontented
The lady within me is begging for affection
The words you utter are no better than your face
Stop whispering lies like “It’ll be okay”

The darkest mood has consumed my inner self
Death has outstretched its arms in hospitality
The sun sets for the one and only masochist, me
The demons within me have grown to me

As the sadness eats away at my flesh
The unkillable monster inside becomes alive
Alive in pain it strives to be more
It wants to be what it could become

Admit that I’m a hopeless case
The melodrama has set in and is doing time
The shock is burning deep in my wretched heart
And the sound of your soul vibrates beneath my fingertips

This book called life is not yet better
If it was destined to be I’d be glowing
But no light has hit the depths of hell
And to this day I live in the fiery hole of nothingness

I’ve had enough---the clothes hide my wretchedness
I’m hiding on the cusp of my un-tragic subtle death
Bury me in the farthest coffin from my love
I’m dying, done, dead form where I need to be