Specks of Time.

You've been gone for two weeks now,
Everybody has moved on now.
Most of the time I forget it too,
Every now and then I do think of you.
I think of you in specks of time,
Memories race through my mind.
Randomly remembering the things you used to say.
It's the simple comfort of knowing that you're down the rode that I miss the most.
Your face haunts my dreams,
In specks of time you look at me.
The words fall out of your mouth, "You look like you've just seen a ghost."
I wake up and I feel like I have,
Sweat beads on my forehead, tears on my cheek.
"You look like you've just seen a ghost."
In specks of time I feel like I'm going crazy.
I miss you so much that sometimes I can't breathe.
You laid in the bed while the cancer at you away,
But I didn't come, I should have come.
I never said goodbye properly, and I think about it in specks of time.
I should've been there by your side, but I couldn't watch you die.
So many things I couldn't do.
When you left I screamed,
I cried and wailed for hours it seemed.
I felt like I'd just seen a ghost.
You should've gotten better.
God could have made you better like you trusted him to do.
In specks of time I get so angry, I want to scream at the sky.
I want to tell God that he failed you,
That he failed me.
He ignored my prayers and my simple pleas.
But in the end you're now where you're supposed to be.
In Heaven with the angels,
Looking down on me.
What I'd give to hug you one last time.
Maybe I will one day in the sky.
Until then I will think of you in specks of time.