Bullied

Being bullied,
But there's no stop,
It can't be helped,
I'm messed up,

Everyone see me as happy,
Bubbly,
Friendly person,
But most is a mask,

I fight back,
But can't stand much longer,
The bully is not another person,
But myself,

I judge my self,
And can't stop,
I beat my self up,
And sometimes I hurt myself in the process,
Physically and mentally,

I call my self names,
Not meaning too,
Most of the time it something along the lines of,
Fat,
ugly,
unimportant,

I don't know what's wrong with me,
I'm so messed up,
I bully my self,
And don't know when it started,
Or how to stop it.