I'm Sorry

she says she hates me even though that shouldnt matter for i am the only one that will truely love me. but it hurts the words being said. i. hate. you. it hurts when a friend says it but when your own mother tells you she hates you, your heart sinks. those words can never be unsaid. so as i sit here in complete darkness i believe her. she does hate me and to think of it, i hate me too. but not for the same reason why she hates me. she hates me out of anger i hate myself out of complete realization that i am unloved by my own mother.