just another mistake

my shaking hands
walking up to you
so many things that i would try to understand
why you left me
left us
was i not worth it
right from the start
you just gave up

was i really so terrible
that you wouldnt stick around to see
who i would become
what i would grow up to be

from playing baseball in the yard
to telling you bout my broken heart
or staying up all night playing cards
or videogames
i never had any of that

all the other kids
went talkin bout their old man
how much he meant to them
how he would hold their hand
i missed out on all that
i ask myself the questions
why wasnt i worth it
why didnt you stayyyyy

was i really so terrible
that you wouldnt stick around to see
who i would become
what i would grow up to be

did you even love me
was i just another mistake
my mind never ceased to wonder
how different my life would be
if you stayed
if you took the chance

you could have called
or even just wrote
silence was all ive known

my shaking hands
walking up to you
so many things that i would try to understand