Shadows Of My Mind

Heal these cuts I made too deep
This hunger you have is feeding on me
As I pull away to face the fear that I am alone
The darkness closes in on me and I am blinded by it
But I can still see the shadows against the walls of my mind
They all scream around me
I pray his light will find me in time
I am afraid I can’t escape
These feelings I have, I just can’t shake
They won’t let me go, and I’m still holding on
I am miserable just breathing
The loss of him and now her eclipses my heart
I make you sick, and you love it
And you will sit there, and denie me
But don’t act like you’re above it
I love you and hate you for forcing me into believing in this
That I was diseased all along
That his death was all my fault
And I played this game in which you made
So I will take this poison pill
Force it down between my lips and swallow
Wait for it to take effect, and destroy my core
I’ll make you watch me on the losing side
As the ground begins to crumble
My world divides
And I will be there to greet you
I welcome you to the shadows of my mind