Depression

It Feels As If The World Is Caving In Around Me,
Like Everything I've Known Has Suddenly Changed.
Nothing Is Like It Should Be Anymore,
And Faking A Smile Is Way More Strained.

I'm Thinking In Ways I Know I Shouldn't,
And Doing Things To Myself That I Know Are Wrong.
I Know I Shouldn't But I Just Can't Stop,
These Scars Just Make Me Feel So Strong.

I'm Becoming More And More Paranoid,
I Feel As If Everybody Is Judging Me.
Making Fun Of My Face, Body And Clothes,
Not What's Inside But Only What They See.

Even My Best Friends Only See My Happy Half,
What They Don't Know Is It's Mostly Just An Act.
Cause Behind That Smile I Just Feel Disapointment,
In Myself, In My Actions, In The Fact I Can't Keep My Happiness Intact.

If I Wasn't So Afraid To Tell Anyone How I Feel,
Maybe The Sadness In Me Wouldn't Be So Extreme.
But I Don't Want My Parents To Worry About Me,
Or Others To Think I'm Just Being A Drama Queen.

I Know It May Sound Like I'm A Little Suicidal,
But I Promise You That I Am Not Even Close.
Yes, Honestly I Have Thought Things May Be Better That Way,
But There are Things I Haven't Done, People I Haven't Met.

Things That Are Worth Me Living For,
Keep me Going, Keep Me Excited For The Road Ahead.
Find That Thing Worth Living For,
And Keep Working Towards It, Don't Give Up!