Live My Life!
You think I’m joking?
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
They say,
At any given moment,
That I have the ability to say,
That this isn’t how I want it to end.
Truly,
It’s not my choice.
I may not like the happy ending,
Sure,
Most girls do,
But what if it’s not what I want?
They say,
That I am powerful,
Strong,
Beautiful,
An individual,
But I am not.
I follow,
I live a horrible lie.
I show that I am strong,
That I have no care in the world,
That I have confidence in myself.
How wrong they are deceived!
How foolish they are to believe what I portray!
I am a weakling,
I am a follower,
I am a baby inside,
I am ugly,
I am a hideous monster!
Oh but they believe me!
They show how much they care for me,
But they wouldn’t.
Not if I showed my true self.
I’ve lost myself,
In the façade,
That I am living.
It’s become tiring,
Painfully so,
It’s become horrible for me.
Unbearable.
You think I’m joking?
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
I repeat myself!
I tell you the truth from above!
I live a fucking lie!
Why would anyone want to live what I’ve been through?
Raped?
Do you want to be raped at the age of nine?
I fucking live through that!
Every fucking night!
It constantly replays inside my head!
I can’t even think straight half the fucking time!
I’m so worried that the man,
Will come back,
And rape me again.
Abused?
How would you like to be abused?
It’s deeply scared into my brain,
The words,
The threats,
The punches,
The kicks,
The broken bones.
Live through that!
Live through that,
And tell me what you fucking think of that!
Bullied…
Cyber-bullied,
Physically bullied,
Emotionally bullied,
Sexually too.
Live through that,
Live through it,
And feel the hate,
Everyone puts on you.
Live through it,
Without wanting to die.
You think I’m joking?
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
Live my life!
Live my fucking lie!
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
They say,
At any given moment,
That I have the ability to say,
That this isn’t how I want it to end.
Truly,
It’s not my choice.
I may not like the happy ending,
Sure,
Most girls do,
But what if it’s not what I want?
They say,
That I am powerful,
Strong,
Beautiful,
An individual,
But I am not.
I follow,
I live a horrible lie.
I show that I am strong,
That I have no care in the world,
That I have confidence in myself.
How wrong they are deceived!
How foolish they are to believe what I portray!
I am a weakling,
I am a follower,
I am a baby inside,
I am ugly,
I am a hideous monster!
Oh but they believe me!
They show how much they care for me,
But they wouldn’t.
Not if I showed my true self.
I’ve lost myself,
In the façade,
That I am living.
It’s become tiring,
Painfully so,
It’s become horrible for me.
Unbearable.
You think I’m joking?
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
I repeat myself!
I tell you the truth from above!
I live a fucking lie!
Why would anyone want to live what I’ve been through?
Raped?
Do you want to be raped at the age of nine?
I fucking live through that!
Every fucking night!
It constantly replays inside my head!
I can’t even think straight half the fucking time!
I’m so worried that the man,
Will come back,
And rape me again.
Abused?
How would you like to be abused?
It’s deeply scared into my brain,
The words,
The threats,
The punches,
The kicks,
The broken bones.
Live through that!
Live through that,
And tell me what you fucking think of that!
Bullied…
Cyber-bullied,
Physically bullied,
Emotionally bullied,
Sexually too.
Live through that,
Live through it,
And feel the hate,
Everyone puts on you.
Live through it,
Without wanting to die.
You think I’m joking?
You think this is all a fucking joke?
Fucking live what I’ve fucking been through!
See if that’s a joke!
See if you can wrap your tiny pubescent brain around it!
See if I fucking lie!
Live my life!
Live my fucking lie!
♠ ♠ ♠
Live it.