My Monster: Hatred

There’s a monster inside me
It’s moving, writhing
Begging to be free
It’s eating me alive
From the inside out
I can’t open my mouth to scream
It wants to reach through my limbs
Consume me
Control me
It wants to destroy
To be released
It’s a building rage in my lungs
My monster
It hates
It hurts
It wants me to lash out
To demolish and to hate
To get revenge
It fills the empty space inside me
I want to scream
To dig my nails into my skin and peel it off
Start afresh
Start a new
But it won’t let me
It’s restless and growing
The darkness inside of me
Feeding the monster
Inside my heart.