the change in us

All around me see me changing
they say im blind for not seeiny,
i feel that there all invading
what i use to be.
i had power.
i had authority.
i had no heart.
i had cold nerves.
now i look back
and i see what i lack.
they say ive changed but fuck man i cant see it.
and what the fuck do they expect,
im just human.
i have problems of my own
my brother is taken
my heart is bakin
i feel for my family when there hurt,
but i dont show them that im hurt.
i still have the sense of being the leader
with stone cold heart
not showing and god damn emotion to the naked eye
now i feel it dont get me wrong.
and i dont like it.
i fuckin hate it,
i just wish i could shoot it
and the news will pronounce that side of me dead
shot up in the block by an ak
but hey
change is crazy,
i guess i gotta deal with it now. but i swear
if anything happens to that kid
ill make sure he comes back with a vengence.