I Can't Stop

I can't stop myself from feeding this monster
That I have made
Or cutting my skin
Making sure that I bleed

I can't stop myself from crying in the shower
Where I confess my sin
Where I wash my bloody wounds
And find that by doing this no one wins

I can't stop myself from leaving you to die
In a cold place with a memory full of lies
Screaming that I'm not good enough
But your beauty doesn't go beyond one's eyes

I want to kick and scream
Rip away the seams
Of this dress that holds me trapped
In a place I do not want to be

I want to smash these windows
And sound the alarm
Steal belongings
Take loved ones from your arms

I can't stop myself from wrecking everything
You
The world
My heart that will forever sting