My thoughts

I know I told you I was fine
I truly thought I was..
Where did it all go wrong?
Maybe happiness isn't meant for me..
Maybe i'm forever meant
To be stuck here in this dark hole
Falling forever
Until I finally go splat.
Ending the pain
For once and for all..
But can i?
I cannot
I cannot leave you here
Not like this
How would you feel?
Would you even care?
I know it's wrong of me to ask
But something is screaming
Tell me
You aren't really here with me..
You wouldn't care if death were to struck me by
This is a mess
But that's how my mind is
Truly don't you see?
You understand now don't you?
This was just a jumbled mess
Of what is cursedly called
My thoughts.