Don't Look at Me

Don't look at me
You won't like what you see
I am hideous
That is what they say
I don't know anymore
Because that is all I hear
Don't look at me
The girls crowd around
Laughing, pointing
Yelling curses
Calling me names
Destroying my soul
Dont look at me
They say I should just leave
And never come back
That I am a horrible person
No, not even a person
A hideous monster
Don't look at me
You are beautiful
You glance at me and smile shyly
I think I love you
But you are too good for me
They rant and scream
Don't look at me
I am sick of it
Sick of the laughing and pointing
The yelling of curses,
The name calling,
The attacks on my soul
Don't look at me
Your friends laugh
When I approach
They call me a pig
And dismiss me
Why am I treated this way?
Don't look at me
I have decided to end my torture
I just can't take it anymore
Why me?
Why not someone else?
I am so alone
Don't look at me
A phone rings
I get it
You say "I would like to get to know you better"
I drop the phone
And smile
Don't look at me
I have ended my torture
But not in the way you would think
I told my parents
I don't know why I waited so long
I was just prolonging my pain
Don't look at me
Things are still bad
No one pays attention to me
They avoid me like the plague
To tell you the truth,
Being avoided is one of the worst things that could happen
Don't look at me
You approach me and sit down
I am shocked
You lean forward and kiss me on the lips
Now I am really shocked
You say "You are beautiful"
I am smiling
Look at me