Again

the beat of the drum
brings me back into
a dreery flashback
the smoke curls around
my body
and the adreniline rush
kicks in
hands shaking
mind spining
i walk into the dark room
and fear hits
black encases my entire being
and I'm lost
with the drums
forgeihn noises swirl me
and I'm content
fear has no hold over calm
not wanting to be found
I'm addicted to my past
again,
again the longing comes for me
again the caring escapes
again I'm lost in a sea of
Addictions
Again I refuse to fight
while people tell me to
Again I lost control