Like an Autumn Leaf

Falling

Falling

Falling

Deeper

And deeper

And deeper

For someone I cannot have

hold

hug

touch.

For someone who is prettier

smarter

better

than me

Why

can’t I

just

tell her

how I feel?

What

do I

have

to lose?

Nothing

Falling

Gliding

Cascading

Swiftly away from reality

Spinning

Swirling

Spiraling

Slowly out of my mind

Through the

Crisp

Cold cut

Autumn air

Like a dead leaf

Off of a big oak tree

I don’t know what is to happen

Or

What is meant to be

My mind is as lost as a needle in a hay stack

My life is jumbled around like the balls in the lottery machine

But that’s O.K.

Because life

is really

just

a big lottery

You never know what number

Will pop out

next

My life is like the autumn leaves,

Sitting on the tree

Hanging on for dear life

For they don’t know when the wind will blow

And

Who

Will

Fall

Next.

The love

I have felt

For her

Is the strongest I have ever felt.

The craving for her to be mine

Is

like

the craving

of a meth addict

It never goes away,

It never leaves me alone

It keeps knocking at my door

Pleading me to come out

Then I could ask her

With

No

Fear

If she would be mine

The constant

Longing

That kills me

Everyday

Could

Finally

Be

Gone

Even if she says no

For then

I would know

Which way the wind blows

I would know when I was about to

Cascade

All

The way

Down

To the multicolored floor.