Not Mother

You say that you care
Bullshit
You say that you listen
Tell me what I just told you yesterday
Yeah, I thought not
You’re abusive
Yet you deny it
I’m crumbling into tiny shards
Of what used to be
Your precious gift
Broken
These tears aren't for you
They're for what I used to be
They're for what you used to be
I need you
Not the you that you are now
But the old you
The you that loved me
For the real me
Mommy
Not Mother
Fuck you, Mother
Let’s see if you really care
When I’m gone
And all that’s left of me
Is my broken childhood
Buried in your heart
The new me will be far away from here
Away from you
Away from hurt
Away from sadness
From tears
To somewhere better than here
Where I will shine
Like the diamond that I am
I will sparkle in the glow of
Success
And in my acceptance speech
I will thank
Daddy
Best friend
God
Grandparents
Fans
Not Mother
Fuck you, Mother
You will come crawling back
Saying that I was right and you were
Wrong
And I will laugh
And turn the other way
And you will crumble into tiny shards
Of what used to be
My precious recipient
One day I will have a child of my own
I will love them
I will accept them
I will listen to them
I will embrace them
I will not be you
Not Mother
But Mommy
And you will never see them
You will never see me graduate
You will never see me get married
You will never be there for me
Because you are not Mommy
You are Mother
Fuck you, Mother