***ed Up Fantasy

I don't know where to start
Because I don't know how things will end
I'm tired of everything that's in my life
And I can no longer pretend

Cry yourself to sleep
Scream until you cannot breathe
I don't have a lot of sex
Because I'm losing self-esteem

*My head ain't screwed on straight
I'm so crazy when I'm sober
Thinking of you keeps me awake
And my inner demons take over
Why won't these feeling go away?

Liquor and cigarettes touch my lips
Because I can't gt a goodnight kiss
I'm a sick dirty fuck, a disgusting filthy slut
I'm far from perfect because I keep on fucking up

Exit out the back of my head
This bullet is my wish upon a shooting star
All I can see is blood red
And I'm not getting very far

*My head ain't screwed on straight
I'm so crazy when I'm sober
Thinking of you keeps me awake
And my inner demons take over
Why won't these feeling go away?

I am a stupid kid
I do lots of stupid things
I do stupid drugs
And I have stupid dreams

The shit hits the fan
In just a small timespan
I thought of stealing girls panties
I live in a fucked up fantasy

Promise panic
Mickey Mouse turns manic

I live in a fucked up fantasy
I live in a fucked up fantasy