Cut

I just wanted the pain to be tangible
Something right there in front of me
This hurt I felt inside of me
Externalized
I make the pain real
And I feel better
I think of the scars as tally marks
Of how many times I've lost myself
By bringing the pain to the surface
I gain control
I watch the blood flow across my skin
And mix in with my tears
I drop the blade beside me
And become whole for a little while longer