I'm Trying

I'm trying to make it okay.
But the odds aren't in my favor.
I'm trying to make it alive.
But time I now must savor.
I'm trying to make this right.
But mistakes I've made are fatal.

I'm trying not to think.
Still my brain wont stop moving.
I'm trying not to breathe.
Still the smoke is just so soothing.
I'm trying not to stare.
Still the blood just keeps on oozing.

I'm trying to do the impossible,
yet no one seems to care.
I'm trying not to love you,
yet that is so unfair.
I'm trying not to miss you,
yet you mean more to me then air.

I keep on trying to do these things,
I was promised that would help me.
Though no matter how hard I seem to try,
It's never, ever working.