Tiny Fragments

We fell in love much too young and unbroken
Too shielded from the bitter words yet to be spoken
You held me tenderly when your heart was awake
But too often
Too often
You left me to ache
Oblivious to my mind’s constantly changing seasons
Unable to speak the language of ill logic and misplaced reasons
Oh, I bled for you
Though you never asked me to
You kissed me softly
But those lips spoke razors
They cut me down to nothing
Unable to breathe, unable to blink
Oh, I bled for you
All over my pillow
Ribcage cracking, splintering
To make room for my swollen heart
Full of love
Full of hurt
Full of anger
Full of sorrow
I cried
I screamed
For you but you never
Never heard
A single word
Even when I told them plain
And choked back the blood
You just looked at me with puzzled eyes
Asked me Why?
Asked me what you’d done wrong
I couldn’t make you understand
I was too weak to guide you, hold your hand
So I buried myself instead
Got lost inside my own head
Until you couldn’t find me
Couldn’t hear me
Believed me to be dead
I buried myself
In my weeping
In my bitterness
And then I rose
Surging through soil
I rose
To find you
To bring you down with me
For you were young and unbroken
Your shoulders free of burden
So I made you carry me
Carry me to our doom
Graves side by side but never touching
Unlike our lips
Intertwined
Infinitely warm
And soft
Like the bed
Where I died to keep you
Asked myself why
I had to leave you
But we fit together like shattered glass
Missing the tiny fragments to fill in the cracks
We’re still young
But we’re broken now
And we ask ourselves how
Our sweet love poisoned us so
So hold me one last time
Wipe the hot tears from my eyes
And fall in love with me again
So I may lose myself in you instead
In the bed
Where we made love for the first time
And the hundredth
And the last time
With broken glass
Digging into my back