Carry On Wayward Son

and suddenly i am crying, i am on the frozen concrete with my hands balled into fists because why—
Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
and i don’t know what to do because he’s gone, cas is gone and sam is gone and there is nothing left except pain—
I was soaring ever higher, but I flew too high
Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a mad man
I hear the voices when I'm dreaming
everything hurts and everything cries in this hell—
Carry on my wayward son,
There'll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don't you cry no more
and why, why does it have to end like this without saying anything—
On the stormy sea of moving emotion
Tossed about, I'm like a ship on the ocean
so many things i could have said but i didn’t have the guts—
Masquerading as a man with a reason
My charade is the event of the season
why is everything gone—
There'll be peace when you are done
i am alone, alone in the dark and no one will come to help me—
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more
only i’m not because there is sam and cas and people and not pain—
Carry on,
You will always remember
they are asking if i’m okay and i’m mumbling and people are looking—
And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don’t know
the trenchcoat is around my shoulders, cas’s smell is wrapped around me too—
Carry on,
Nothing equals the splendour
and i am safe—
Now your life’s no longer empty
Surely heaven waits for you