Old Friend

The four white walls confine me
The locked door keeps me secure
The blade on the counter gives me comfort

Oh, how I've missed you, old friend
It's been so long since we last met

Shaky fingers touch you as you cut through skin,
You leave a beautiful line that oozes red
Oh, the comfort you give me, old friend
But if only my comfort could last longer

I feel a myself grow faint
I begin to feel lightheaded as more crimson flows from my body
Oh, make the pain stop, old buddy

Not too long before
I was bleeding on the floor
It wouldn't stop
Oh boy, did I try to make it stop

The last things I see are my mother
The tears streaming
What will it take for you to see, they can't save me anymore?
When will you realize that my life was meant to end like this?

Oh brother dearest,
You watched our mother sadly, but stared at me in disgust
Even as I am dying
As I am more than half gone, you still do this?
What have I done to you?

Daddy, oh poor daddy,
You were more bent out of shape than ol' mother dear
With the gasping breaths and the tears falling
You would think you were the only one that cared

Oh god, Sister, you killed me
You collapsed on the floor when you saw me
You cried out bloody murder
You did anything and everything to convince yourself it wasn't suicide
I'm sorry, so very sorry

But years later, I'm still being mourned
The people who used to tease me regret it
The girls are anorexic, bulimic,
My best friend has shut herself from all society, she's a mess
My parents split, my siblings never talk

Oh, Old Friend, what have I done?
Dear Old Friend, save them from this
Old Friend, don't let them end up like me