I want to die

I want to die so badly
It hurts to look at me
To see all my imperfections
All those bruises and scars
Covered by drawings
A mask of a smile
So you won’t see the pain
Should I hang myself?
Bullet or knife?
Whatever it is I want to go soon
Escape this life of pain
I can’t bear to hear myself
A voice so ugly
A sight so repulsive
It makes me cry
The thought of death
Makes me smile
Everyone would be happier
So many fewer broken hearts
I don’t think anyone would come to my funeral
But I don’t mind
I know they hate me
I don’t care if you don’t cry
I know you will smile
You’ll be free of this hideous creature
The way it was meant to be
A mistake covered up.