Calling

I'm closer to home, but closer to hell,
The longer you loved me, the harder I fell.
But the mask came off and the pain poured out,
and you left me with nothing but guilt and doubt.
And i tried to piece it together, but it blew up in flames,
burning my faith but hiding my shame.
I gave you so much, More than I should,
Said you'd never tell, but i knew that you would.
I'm not an angel, I'm not a saint,
A terrible sinner, the good in me faint.
I let myself go, the devil inside,
Taking control, glows in my eyes.
I pray for forgiveness, I try to stay strong,
But danger creeps in, the spirit doesn't last long.