All Grown Up Now And Terribly Lost
We had all the right visions, all the right dreams
Chased them 'til the end, ignored the screams
Our perfect lives wasn't all that far away it had seemed
Now all i remember is when i thought we could still learn to believe,
and not only in what we had lived through or seen
Guess i fell too hard, guess i fell too deep,
Right into an overused old trap , with no chance of ever getting you back
And when i stumbled upon death and caught my breath,
I laughed it off, yet knowing i had been pushed over the edge
Now it's way past midnight, past bedtime stories and hope
Cause I'm all grown up now and terribly lost
With endless hours behind me, of broken bones and trust
Our entire world snapped in two, all cause of stupidity and lust
I fought the war and believed, that no matter loss or love, I had won
So how come everything i cherished is suddenly gone?
And when i felt the pain cut through, skin deep and alive
All my once treasured common sense fell through, uncovered by blue eyes
because
Now i watch from my frozen windows, soul and mind
and listen through my ears, both terribly overused by lies and fear
There's a deadweight on my shoulder
a bullet hole in my chest, this eerie silence brought by death
This mind has given in, and This heart, given out
I've gone completely cold, inside and out
All you ice blue colours choking m heart
I've noticed and welcomed this sudden change of light,
Only to realize that it was brought by the loss of a loved yet painful life
Because in all that we did, became and dreamed
Hell, in all that we lost, forgot and screamed
My anger for you never failed to slip through
Just like those growing cracks of love for you
Never failed to amaze and yet somehow hurt
But for now i'll settle on wishing i was mistaken
This time around there's no denying or forgetting what's wrong
Because I'm choking, breaking and in over my head
As you from your grave continue to burn all that's left
I lost my grip, my sense of reality ,When all i can think is
what's the point of fighting, when fighting still means the end?
Cause i get twice the amount of hurting,
As i get happiness when trying
I guess all i can see ahead of me
Is the road downhill and dying
Chased them 'til the end, ignored the screams
Our perfect lives wasn't all that far away it had seemed
Now all i remember is when i thought we could still learn to believe,
and not only in what we had lived through or seen
Guess i fell too hard, guess i fell too deep,
Right into an overused old trap , with no chance of ever getting you back
And when i stumbled upon death and caught my breath,
I laughed it off, yet knowing i had been pushed over the edge
Now it's way past midnight, past bedtime stories and hope
Cause I'm all grown up now and terribly lost
With endless hours behind me, of broken bones and trust
Our entire world snapped in two, all cause of stupidity and lust
I fought the war and believed, that no matter loss or love, I had won
So how come everything i cherished is suddenly gone?
And when i felt the pain cut through, skin deep and alive
All my once treasured common sense fell through, uncovered by blue eyes
because
Now i watch from my frozen windows, soul and mind
and listen through my ears, both terribly overused by lies and fear
There's a deadweight on my shoulder
a bullet hole in my chest, this eerie silence brought by death
This mind has given in, and This heart, given out
I've gone completely cold, inside and out
All you ice blue colours choking m heart
I've noticed and welcomed this sudden change of light,
Only to realize that it was brought by the loss of a loved yet painful life
Because in all that we did, became and dreamed
Hell, in all that we lost, forgot and screamed
My anger for you never failed to slip through
Just like those growing cracks of love for you
Never failed to amaze and yet somehow hurt
But for now i'll settle on wishing i was mistaken
This time around there's no denying or forgetting what's wrong
Because I'm choking, breaking and in over my head
As you from your grave continue to burn all that's left
I lost my grip, my sense of reality ,When all i can think is
what's the point of fighting, when fighting still means the end?
Cause i get twice the amount of hurting,
As i get happiness when trying
I guess all i can see ahead of me
Is the road downhill and dying