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Breathe in, breathe out.
My heart beats faster as I let my mind run free in thought.
Small sparks when we talk, but when I hear your voice the energy takes my breath away.
I feel myself falling, my feelings spiralling out of control for you.
The sort of feelings that work their way in and grow slowly, before one day they take you by surprise.
This is what you've done to me darling and I can't escape it.
I haven't felt this way in a while now, until you appeared out of thin air.
Feeling this way makes me a little scared, I've become used to the rejection I've been handed out.
But at the same time, talking to you puts me at ease.
Trying to make sense of it in my head just doesn't work.
So because of the fear and unknown, my guard rises and my feelings stay hidden.
Or try to.
Except somehow you still sneak in, you and your amazing words that flow.
Word by word my guard falls, getting lower by the minute.
Yet somewhere beneath the fear, something keeps me listening.
It's like I'm addicted to you.
All your little quirks just draw me in closer to you.
But my mind is still with me, I still succumb to the feeling of panic I've become used to.
Dropping into the darkness of the unknown, what will come from this?
Rejection? Love? Indifference?
So many possibilities rush through my mind and I don't know what to do.
I'm not sure how I'd cope with any of them any more.
Just when I think it can't get any darker in my mind, you say something to me.
It brings a smile to my face once again.
So I breathe in, breathe out.