"Lost"

The guilt eats away at me
But it's nothing to compare to your pain.
The heartbreak I caused cannot be fixed;
And "I'm sorry" keeps it bitterly the same.
My heart feels heavy with this sadness,
But it's shallow next to yours
Saying "I love you" won't help, I know,
When the lips that whisper are the source.
My eyes fill with tears uncried
And I won't ever let them fall.
There's no reality where it's all right
For me to weep for you at all.
This weight crushes my insides
And I'm finding it harder to breathe each day.
But I'm forcing myself to step forward
Because you feel worse in every way.
The image of you crying stays behind my eyes
And I'm frozen for a moment once again.
There's no luxury for me to stay like this
When I was the reason we had to end.
My body aches with longing for you
I know I'm not allowed to feel.
Because the truth that even I can see
Is that your torture is much more real.
Being stuck here, I can't find my way,
But I know this is where I need to stay.
For you to heal a little faster,
I'll remain lost for you another day.