Complication

My emotions are here.
I know how to play them.
I may not be,
who I come out to seem.
I don’t believe in heaven or hell,
but I’m scared.
I want to think,
that when I leave,
I’d have a place to go.
I’m dragged down and out of touch.
And hope to see,
one day I can be.
I will hold on.
But I wont deny,
my feelings inside.