Chained

I

exhaled silence
Into the grey room
Where I kept my heart
Chained, contained, and forgotten.

Will

I ever learn
How to breathe
Around you again?
Without my heart clawing at my chest?

Never

Have I had to restrain
Myself from such a word.
It mocks me with every girl
You have ever come to

Love.

I’ll never be chosen
And I shouldn’t want to be.
I’ll stand by and watch
You stroke her hair and laugh.

You

Are so happy to be in love.
I am happy too, to see you
Change into a man that’s
So honest, so kind. But

I lied

When I said I would always
Be around. It’s been a few years
Now and it’s becoming unbearably
Hard to never be the one.